Sharing from Juliette Jourdan

I wish to tell my experience to express my gratitude, and share the teachings of Ratu that I remember, for those who missed them.

I came for Ratu’s birthday last November and it was also Galungan and then Kuningan ceremonies. Those two ceremonies are about dharma and adharma, and very much about offerings to our ANCESTORS.

In the past, when Ratu talked about ancestors, it was abstract for me. At best, I saw it as the icing on the cake… But maybe in fact, it is the cake itself ! Maybe our shake doesn’t concern us individually, but rather cycles and energy. For sure, our ancestors are an integral part of the process, no more but no less than we are.

Gde said that Ratu was too shy to teach and guide us. If he dares to do so, it’s thanks to our ancestors who constantly ask him to. Perhaps our ancestors drive us to Ratu, that we shake and free the lineage. As far as I understand, in Astral, everyone wants to follow Ratu. The spirits, our ancestors… The more I come, the more privileged I feel to be a friend of Ratu Bagus.

As we were with the Raksamuka, he also explained that after death, we can no longer free ourselves. We are like asteroids, moved by gravity, but not by ourselves. He made circles with his arms, perhaps to illustrate the journey we undertake after death and before returning. Maybe, by shaking, we are like a powerful rocket launched on this journey to travel very far in astral! This teaching was about movement. Energy works in waves. And when we keep burden or whatever inside, we block energy. We should open up, offer, that everything can flow. He said we are the center of Univers.

He also recounted that before it became Ratu’s land, this place was called the Golden Lake. It was a swamp, and like the BERMUDA TRIANGLE. The village was afraid of this place; everything disappeared there. The Pudaksa was already there, preserving the land for Ratu’s mission. We all know how special the ashram is, and each time I go there, I understand a little better why. I love retreats in Europe. We can feel intense joy and energy there. But for sure, what we experience in one day at the ashram, we will never have in a hundred retreats.

At RATU’S BIRTHDAY evening, when the gamelan started, Ratu sat for a while in the corner. We were all amazed to see Ratu physical, it was so much Ratu, serious, surrounded by his two old Brahmins friends and all of us sitting around him like before. The next day, Gde explained that Ratu knows the time and had been waiting there for the precise moment for the ceremony to begin. Then he stood up, and the ceremony truly started.

After the party, I felt a big shift in the energy. More inside, slower, softer and stronger. We were a few to cry the day after !

GdeRatu was there every three days; we were very lucky. When he wasn’t there, we regularly went down to Campuhan with Yuri, Chi-Way, Irina, Katherin… to take care of the place, collect flowers, make offerings, sing, bathe in the sacred waterfall and we had the deep feeling of doing something important.

The Gajamina is like a rock in the sea. We touched its tail. So immense. Feeling of so huge love and also that it’s growing with us. Maybe that’s why it’s take time to finish it in the real, because we are slow ! 😉 The Balinese say they take stones from the river to build the statue. And it’s endless. New stones keep arriving. Perhaps our ancestors bring them for us…

Guna shared that a person alone is one light, and that when we act together, it’s more lights, brighter, more visible from above. Therefore, it is so important to act together. I am happy that I was afraid to go down to this wild area on my own. Thanks to that fear, I had precious moments with precious friends.

Guna keeps saying that nothing has changed. Ratu is here. Each visit brings me closer to his presence. For the first time, I didn’t miss his physical form. Playing, trying to guess if Jero Lanang had already arrived…

I remember last March, GdeRatu said we need to learn about the TIME. This stay was for me about eternity. We are with Ratu forever, soul has no time. Consequently, better to love ourselves and love each others or eternity could be very long without love ! For me, stopping the time creates magically space to Ratu, to Love and personally, precious space for my daughter. In the real, the clock at the Taman slowed dramatically. The next day, the same thing happened at the water temple. Some people became nervous ! Following an idea from Holland, the kitchen team scheduled the sharing from 9:15 to 9:30. Sharing has become virtually impossible. And the day after, at Tirta, the clock stopped!

It was nice (and funny) to watch how energy taught each person. A few months later, the sharing resumed freely, and there was no longer any need to organize duties. No roaster anymore. Everyone happy to do all tasks together, in the energy.

As well, It was good to see that everyone got strong energy in the Taman when GdeRatu was over there, even in his room. Even those who do not go towards him. As if our dear community was gradually united again.

I‘ve also heard that many spirits wish to enter the ashram. They arrive at Campuhan (the waterfall area), and as we climb the stairs, they begin their own journey towards the light. At Tirta, guardians do not allow any spirits to enter. Only our ancestors may come, for we are present. The guardians know us and permit our ancestors to enter.

At BURUAN ashram, I was delighted to see what Balinese family has created. Cultivating the land together with ingenuity and accordance with the laws of nature, brings me joy and confidence. Lobsters, ducks, aquaponics, financial projects… I know that what is happening in the ashram can be replicated around the world, and that’s really exciting.

Moreover, it’s fill my heart to see how Gde takes care of his people, how they must be proud of their achievement. And it is just a beginning.

My stay was fabulous and at the same time something heavy in my heart didn’t release. I tried in vain to not blame myself but on my way back, I understood. My plane just landed, I opened my phone and by perfect synchronicity, my sister called : my dad was in Hospital. He felt down on November 27th and was taken into the ambulance just as I was boarding. He passed away just before Christmas.

He had been ill for two years; I knew he would soon be gone. But this synchronicity, I couldn’t expect. I then understood how I had been prepared, guided by Ratu’s love. It is so beautiful to have made all these offerings to my ancestors and actually to have prepared the place for my father. He was very afraid to go and I know everything went perfectly for him. In fact, it would be valuable to shake if only for this moment.

The family celebrations were filled with emotions, and JOY was the strongest. I heard it was the most beautiful family gathering, ever.

I didn’t have an easy relationship with him. But only love remains. Deep peace and reconciliation. I feel him with Ratu and that maybe he understands now what I do and who I am. I honored him during the ceremonies, I sang for him to express my love as I had never been able to before, as I do at the ashram and as I am doing now in writing these words, to express my love for Ratu and for my father.

See you there soon
Juliette