Sharing by April Crawford-Smith, written May 23rd 2026, Buruan Shake.
It was like seven volcanoes existed inside me, Ratu. With your son, there but not there, just like you, not there but there.
You existed inside my heart like seven volcanoes.
So hot was my body, the sacred fire burnt everything that wasn’t light, everything that was process, everything that was mind, right into my core, my very being, my soul, my absolute self.
I was wet to the touch, everything dripping with sweat, perspiration so drenched with light, I didn’t feel cold at all.
The night was dark, the blackness enveloping my mind, until all I saw was another dimension, another realm, another place. Opening up above us and all around us.
The stones felt like soft cushions under my feet, only once did I fall out of the god space and felt one sharp, excruciatingly sharp, on the stomach point underfoot.
And then the laughter came. Deep belly, full throated laughter, spraying light into all the reaches of the Universe and I felt you smiling Ratu, smiling at my pure joy, my luscious wonder, my explosiveness.
The crying came then too, but only lasted ten or so seconds, more laughter breaking it apart into one billion pieces of happiness and peace.
I feel as though I’m falling apart Ratu, feel as though my mind is shattering into pieces and all I can do is look a them on the ground, fallen and scattered, but also clear, clean, in the void of love, light, joy, calm… amidst the seven volcanoes.
After the shake, I knelt down in exhaustion or elation, again the stones felt like cushions, and I was blank, so full of light, I could hardly move.
So I laid my body down into the ground letting the earth compost my process, letting the levels draw down the stuff inside my body that needed to be let go.
Afterwards, I found somewhere to wash, to release my body of process etc and slowly made my way to the others, who were sitting in small clusters around the shaking area, the Temple, the sacred fire, but I couldn’t ground enough to be with anyone, I felt totally off the planet. Finally after changing into clean clothes I shuffled to a spot I could sit in private, to tend to my sarong and hair, attempting to create a semblance of me again.
Made and Meira somehow found me and talked to me, helping me find myself back in my body and in my heart. Thank you Ratu for their help in coming back to earth with their kindness and gentleness, after being in the other dimensions that you took me to.
I now understand what you were trying to show us Ratu, and now through Gde, about feeling. It’s all about feeling, all about feeling, about feel, feel, feel.
So I went to have dinner with everyone and tried to stay completely in the feeling space, letting my body and my heart speak to those around me, letting my soul shine out from my heart and staying in feeling.
Thank you from the centre of my heart for the chance to glimpse the mysteries of the Universe, to integrate the love in the form of energy, to comprehend what it is that you have been trying to show us for decades now Ratu.
I am on the edge of something Ratu. I am slowly stepping forward to meet you where you are and it is in this goldenness that I am residing now, maybe not in every single second, but I’m trying and giving it my best, until maybe one day I can shift totally into a new reality.
Slowly, slowly gently finding truth, finding love, finding feeling.
What a wild ride Ratu, I am so grateful for this opportunity to be, here, with you and to help spread truth and light around the world.
Suksema Gde, our beautiful emblem, channel, son, light giver, powerful being.
Suksema Ratu, our ascended Master, Father, friend, mirror to all that we are.
Suksema, suksema, suksema.
With all my love, Aprille
