Om swastyastu, I’d like to share my experience in the Ashram in march and may 2024.
Firstly, throughout my stay, I’ve been rescue by so much warm, insightful and daily support from the balinese as much as the western kitchen. I am so grateful to everyone there. We are definitely One. However, in some points, there is like a tower of Babel process. Is our frequency too low ? I don’t know but for sure, it’s a good motivation to focus! When we can see the stars of Ursa Major in Europe, we see the Southern cross in Bali. We need all views to get the whole picture, to get Ratu. In my view, only mind doesn’t want. Some preserve the ashram, others build new statues. All is essential. Let’s travel to the other side, whatever side it is. We all do what we feel according to Ratu’s teaching. We don’t know the big plan, we just all love Ratu. My sharing is an invitation to travel.
In march, on my 2nd day, it was Galungan. I met Gede/Ratu for the 1st time. Right after the ceremony, Gede was sitting in the corner with balinese and some westerners, at the exit of the Taman. I felt this tangible energy of Ratu presence. I sat and felt my frequency instantly lifted. We stood up to shake on the stones. In front of him, my feet got so gently warm and the heat flowed up to my ovaries which became like 2 balls of fire. I could recognize Ratu signature on my body, but my mind was still in the Yes/No with Gede. Then on Sunday, I came to shake with him at the Lakshmi temple. My heart was not fully opened. After a while, he stood in front of me and I felt the big heart chakra. My mind kept wondering, he did something with his arms and energy threw me at his feet.
In the evening, during a strong circle, my forehead’s cleared in a way that I’d never experienced before. The next morning, my sight was different, like new eyes. I could see the magic everywhere. Then process started. Flue, vomiting, tiredness for weeks… But now, I can find my focus on watching trees like watching Ratu picture.
I love our 3 new statues. My first days there, I came to the Raksamuka (close to the lakshmi temple). It was not finished yet. A paper cup of coffee was left on the head of the snake. I thought it was not respectful. I removed the coffee, offered flowers and shared to a friend… and she told me the Raksamuka only likes coffee ! I felt so ignorant, apologized and brought back humbly a new cup of coffee. This’s been a good and funny lesson!
The Pudaksa (the Garuda), is maybe not the strongest but the most demanding for sure. I had fabulous peaceful time there, feeling protected by warm and deep energy. But once, in May, I came whilst I was angry with my daughter… and had to run away, totally frightened! Better to be ready to get there !
Balinese translated that the Pudaksa represents the past, the Raksamuka the present and the Gajamina the futur. Protection and connection. Like pillars for a new era ? They also keep saying that now, Ratu can teach us more about the spiritual realm. Tell more. Talking a lot. That’s now possible.
I am so happy that I helped to carry stones for the big Gajamina. Maybe everybody will be able to carry his stone because they plan one year to achieve it. The Gajamina will be a home for our ancestors. To rest in the light before their new cycle of life. To me, the waterfall area was before a place to isolate myself, to go deep inside in a wild place, a bit scary, where nature were stronger than me. Now I feel so much lighter there, the soil is alive, almost shaking. The nature is still strong but with human presence. And the part of me looking for loneliness before, is not alone anymore.
Gede compared spirits to Pokemons. We should do the same. We put spirits in our pocket balls. We feed, protect them and in turn they protect us. We are never alone.
Two years ago, when our community started to split, my heart was broken. In meditation I asked Ratu. The one time I heard Ratu talking inside he said, « Gede is right ». I didn’t know Ratu’s son, but felt a torrent of love for him. It seemed like Ratu reroute my love for him to his son. By that time, I thought Gede was right about financial stuff at the ashram. But it is much more. When he is around, our relax position is a smile. He is cleaning the sky. All problems are gone, no more question, just deep sweetness, love and joy.
All this is, for me, what is truly alive in the ashram.
Nevertheless, Gede said to focus on Ratu, not on him. What I heard is that Ratu tells him what to do at the last moment. What to say, where to go… Sometimes funny but never easy for him! It seems that he really has to. When big lightenings struck in April, he said that he grew up (maybe born) in the ashram, but never saw such thunder in more than 40 years.
As well for Yéliz, my daughter. When we sat with Gede on her 1st Saturday night, she was crushed by energy, she couldn’t carry her head as if the sky was falling on her. She fell down on my knees. Then she lifted her head to say « Oh it is like Ratu! » And fell down on my knees again. From that night, Ratu’s son started to be her best friend, waiting to see him on Thursdays and week-ends.
Finally said that energy doesn’t understand sadness or whatever negative thoughts. Doesn’t know what to do with it. Energy understands only love and happiness. That was a good reminder for me.
After my 1st shake in Buruan, I felt surrendered again as I haven’t been since Ratu passed. I realize how much my ego got stronger without a physical master.
Juliette